Time To Regroup

Well, year one is down. Our final small group meeting was all about "do you feel you've been indoctrinated into the culture of medicine"...the unspoken message seemingly - yes = bad. My school is a liberal-ish, hippy-dippy sort of place, with patient-centric teachings, emphasis on the psychology of patient interactions, and lots of exposure to primary care-underserved patient opportunities. All of which contributed to why I chose this school...I dig that shit.

However, in finishing my first year, I have to say, I have become "indoctrinated". I am more defensive when I hear negative patient feedback ("but we have so little time, so much information to process, so many responsibilities!") and I'm increasingly realizing that the strain of maintaining a patient-centric view while being sleep-deprived is going to be my Mt. Everest. I'm not a happy insomniac.

At the same time, while that shift is slightly morally disappointing, I have learned A LOT. I am beginning to feel confident that someday (someday far, far in the future) I will make a competent physician. It is unbelievable how much you learn in one year, and although you feel like you forget it all as soon as the exam is over, a surprising amount sticks with just a little reminder.

This summer I'll be working on the anatomy and histology course resources for next year, tutoring, and spending a lot of time sailing, lying on very small, smooth rocks, and running in green, cushy places. It will not suck at all.

Comments

[Rachel]

There's only one word for all of this.... and that is CONGRATUFUCKINGLATIONS!!!

[Adam]

I have another word: absofuckinglutely.